Hi friends, I’m finally able to look at my pictures/videos without CRYING. So I’m ready to talk about my trip to BTS world and seeing the boys not once but TWICE live. I’m still unable to find the words and I’m still in utter belief that they were real. So here we go, I’ll be posting about this trip in 3 separate blog posts. First post being what this trip has done for me personally.
On November 27, 2021 At the crack of dawn, I got up to catch my FIRST SOLO flight across the country to see my favorite band: BTS. I’ve NEVER flown alone and never EVER wanted to. My anxiety and nerves kept me from ever trying to. But for BTS, I was determined. By the grace of God and the ticket angels ,I was blessed. And I’m a big believer in once I pay for something I have to follow through. So I pushed through and through every anxious thought got on that plane to see my boys.
It definitely wasn’t easy, the week leading up ,I had horrible stomach issues and the worst case of anxiety ever that caused me to itch from head to toe all day. It was unbearable, but I knew it was all in my head and I would definitely be fine. Not to mention my family’s negativity surrounding my trip and the endless jokes about ME of all people being able to navigate the airport all by myself , also put me on edge and fueled me with doubt. But I was determined to prove them wrong and prove to myself that I could do it. The only person standing in my way was myself.
I made my way to the airport, checked in and got my bags checked and made it to my gate all by myself. Just by reading the signs and paying attention. I was alert and didn’t draw attention to myself as I was traveling alone. Once I got through the airport process and got on the plane, I was so excited. I couldn’t believe how easy it was and how much my anxiety disappeared once I got on the plane. It really was all in my head. Two plane rides later, I was finally in LA. Finally about to see the boys who mean so much to me. I was blown away by my determination and how brave I’d been. Flying alone might not seem like a big deal to most, but I have very bad anxiety and flew across the country ALONE. That is a huge deal to me and I will celebrate it . And the only way I would have ever been able to do that is because of BTS. They mean that much to me I was willing to sacrifice my worries and being uncomfortable just to see them LIVE. I flew across the country ALONE just for BTS. The weeks leading up, I had gotten a new job and was just feeling defeated. I was severely depressed and burnt out and just wanted to give in. Throw in the towel. The only thing that kept me going was the chance to see BTS live.
This trip means so much to me, not only did it give me courage to do things outside my comfort zone, but it healed me deeply and showed me I could do anything I put my mind too. Nothing could or would stop me as long as I believed in myself and had the best intentions. Even though I met up with a Army friend, I definitely consider it a solo trip and would safely recommend every women take one. It wakes you up, it feels you with so much joy and independence. I had to ask questions and figure out things for myself. And it was a great feeling doing that and proving everyone wrong!!! I’m so grateful for this opportunity, that only BTS gave to me. I would have never done it for anyone else!! BTS has given me strength and love in my times of need . And I’ll forever be grateful to them. This trip definitely changed me and it’s put a fire in me, a fire that’s been burnt out all 2021 honestly. I know a tour announcement is coming so soon and I’m ready to fight for some great seats and soundcheck!!!! I’m Ready to see my BOYS Everytime they go on tour ! I’ve never felt so free and happy in a atmosphere before!! It was truly an experience. I now know why they say once you go to one concert, you’ll wanna go back Everytime. BTS thankyou for saving me. I’ll continue to save you and support you until the wheels roll off. I love you Bangtan.
Part two : Dealing with SoFi Stadium coming Tommorow.
Until next time friends …..
AsToldByShanise 