Goodbye decade 🥳 hello 2020🍾

At the beginning of this decade I was fresh out of high school(no diploma), no job, no friends and super depressed. and I was lying to everyone around me about what I was I doing with my life. Truth is I wasn’t doing anything and that killed me and I was ashamed. I felt hopeless for the first half of the decade and my 20s , like it would never get better. And for a long time it didn’t. It only got worse. I couldn’t get a job, I couldn’t pass my math ged (always 4 points off) and my friends didn’t understand depression/mental health and walked away. Fast forward to the end of the decade and I’ve had 3 jobs and been in college since 2016, I’ve put my work on hold to go back to school full time in January, I’ve launched a blog/website, started selling my jewelry. Fell inlove, fell out of of love, fell in love with myself, cut off a toxic 10 year nothingship, realized money doesn’t make you happy, made new friends who feel like family, traveled to Mexico, North Carolina, South Carolina , Georgia, California, became much more confident in myself, I became comfortable In my sexuality and so so much more. Started working out and looking after myself. Looking back I’ve accomplished ALOT And I’ve come so far! Shanise from 2010 would NEVER even dream half of this would happen. If I would have gave up in 2012,2013,2014 I wouldn’t be here and wouldn’t have been able to experience the amazing things I have. I’m glad to be saying goodbye to this decade. Although the end of it was amazing , it was still a very hard 10 years for me and I really went through it! Here’s to 2020🥂🍾 and to hoping I’ve finally found my way and I can let go of all the past bullshit. Here’s to another 10 years!!!!! (Please be better than the last)🥳🍾

HAPPY NEW YEARS, BE SAFE🍾🥂🎶

Goodbye 2019

Here’s the thing, the god honest truth, 2019 was the hardest year I’ve had in a long time. I went fresh into the new year with a new job and a new semester of school and full of hope(New website). Ended up succeeding in work but failed an entire semester of school. I dropped out temporally. I made new friends whilst keeping the old ones. New friends turned out not to be so good for my mental health. Old friends started new ventures and moved away. Cue my mental health taking another dive. My love life, completely toxic and full of drama. Cue my mental health taking ANOTHER dive. For the first time in years, I felt hopeless and just useless. I was working non-stop and was miserable. I felt like my life was going nowhere. In August I started pushing everyone away. And by November I could barley leave my bed unless I had to go to work. I wasn’t sleeping and my mind was in overdrive . Without getting to TMI on the god awful internet, I just want to say all of this sucked major ass and I’m going into 2020 hopeful. I’m making a lot of changes for the new year and I just hope I’m back here alive on December 27 ,2020 to tell you all about my amazing wonderful year. I’m rooting for myself for the first time EVER. Happy New Years 🥳

Best Netflix shows of 2019☑️

  • Here’s my absolute favorite shows of 2019. All of them being Netflix shows. And I binged them all.
    1. Sex education
      The society- mind you before I watched it…I had a dream about this same exact plot and was like wow this would be a good show/movie🥴🙄
      You- no matter how creepy dan Humphrey was/is , it’s still a very good watch!
  • What shows have you been watching and loving this year?
  • Best franchises of the decade👏

    As we end another decade. Let’s look back on some of the best movie franchises it had to offer.

    1. The avengers franchise- also the highest grossing franchise EVER.
    2. Star Wars- the last Jedi, the force awakens, the rise of sky walker
    3. The Hunger Games
    4. Paranormal activity franchise
    5. Fifty shades of grey
    6. Iron man-1,2,3
    7. Captain America-1,2,3
  • 8.Thor-1,2,,3
  • I’m almost certain I’m missing some. But here are the films i enjoyed and watched the most this past 10 years. What were your favorites?! Did they make the list?!
  • Queen and slim

    I waited to do this review because I simply didn’t wanna seem unsupportive of the black arts. I was super excited when I first saw the trailer earlier this year and LOVED the concept of a black-chocolate Bonnie and Clyde. And to some extent this was just that. But it was also a HUGE letdown. The actors did AMAZING. They did what they could with the script and acted their asses off. The storyline has huge plot holes. And generally just didn’t seem like it knew what kind of story it wanted to tell. The film was beautifully shot. But it just wasn’t as great as the black community is hyping it up to be. It was boring.( I hate to say it), but it was boring. There was a point I fell asleep during it and woke up and nothing still had happened. The ending pissed me off and the whole film just didn’t seem likely. The only touching part of the film was the end. I hate even being this negative towards this film because it had the potential and the acting was superb!!! But it just fell short for me. But maybe that’s just me and maybe I was expecting to much, who knows! Still go see it and support the black arts!!!

    Fine line review🎶

    Its finally here, harry styles sophomore album fine line dropped Friday December 13, and what an album it is!!!! He took two years to make this album and I was kinda of nervous to see how he would step it up from the first album. Artists generally struggle with their second albums and it’s usually their make or break to see if they’ve STILL GOT IT. But Mr. Styles has proved his longevity and his creativity in this business!!! If I dare say fine line is miles ahead of his first album and one of the best albums of 2019! Fine line is full of Woodstock/hippie vibes and I’m all for it. Harry really has leveled up with his vocals and range! I had no idea Harry’s register could go that low or that high for that matter. There was a couple times on different songs I had to rewind and go ” wait harry, no YOU JUST DID THAT SIS”. I’m so proud of how far he’s come and how comfortable he’s gotten in his fluidity and music. I think he’s finally found his lane. I can’t WAIT to see him in concert in August. Favorite songs off the album

    1. Tpwk
    2. Cherry
    3. Canyon moon
    4. Sunflower vol.6
    5. Watermelon sugar
    6. Fine line
    7. Falling
      To be so lonely
  • Give it a listen, I’m not being bias it’s a great listen! Happy holidays 🎄🎄
  • Favorite albums of 2019🎶

    1. LM5- little mix

    2. Harry styles -fine line

    3. Fka twigs- Magdalene

    4. Clairo- immunity

    5. Ariana grande- thank you NEXT

    In the tall grass

    When I first heard about this film I was kinda of interested but kind of not. It just didn’t make any logical sense as to why anyone would hear screaming from a field of “tall grass” and run into it and try to help. But I guess if everyone just called the cops first then we wouldn’t have a film. To say this movie was highly disturbing would be a understatement. The movie follows a brother and sister on a road trip, who while driving by hears cry’s of help from the tall grass . The brother and sister then are lured into the grass and all its sinster secrets it holds. Overall the film was pretty good. I haven’t read the book so I don’t know if they did it justice or not. But as a Stephen king fan I can say it was very weird and disturbing and disgusting, so they must have done something right. There’s plenty of “omg wtf” scenes but one scene in particular that has stayed with me since watching it Saturday. And let’s just say it gave me straight mother/Jennifer Lawrence vibes. I give in the tall grass 8/10. Patrick Wilson was AMAZING and plays a creepy scary asshole too well. The other acting was alright compared to his. In my opinion he carried the whole film. I would watch it again but maybe skip over certain parts.

    IT: chapter 2

    It’s only taken me a month and seeing this film twice for me to write a total NON bias review. To start things off: I LOVED THIS FILM( almost as much as the first). It was the perfect follow up to the first film. The adult actors were PERFECTLY casted. And it was almost uncanny seeing how much they copied the mannerisms of the younger cast. The acting was brilliant and I was surprised to leave the theater feeling so full of emotion and heartbroken. This film left me so sad. Which is weird , because I know it’s supposed to be a “horror film ” but I just didn’t find it scary at all.🤷🏾‍♀️ I mean there were some scary jump moments don’t get me wrong. But it was much more funnier and heartbreaking than scary. I DID not like the graphics and how the monsters or the adult losers fears looked. It looked so cgi and fake I couldn’t help but laugh. I wished they would have used more practical effects instead. It totally takes you out of the moment because it looks so CHEESY. They also cgied pennywise way to much in this film for my liking. Like it wasn’t necessary at all. Overall it was still a great end to pennywise and a great follow up film. Bill skarsgaurd is amazing. And I would love to see him in more big roles. ( and I’m also down to see him as the joker or any other villain in this new Batman). Bill hader totally surprised me as Richie. I knew he could bring the comedy but I was shocked when he brought the drama and made me cry so hard. Everyone did amazing. I don’t think anyone outshined anyone. They all played their parts BEAUTIFULLY. Shout out to Stan the man for breaking my heart 15 mins into the film. Also the homophobic opening scene was hard to watch and unsettling. But perfect to open the film. I give this masterpiece a 5/5. We will let the cheesy graphics slide because everything else was AMAZING.