Here are my favorite red carpet looks from last night in NO particular order.
Here are my favorite red carpet looks from last night in NO particular order.
Don’t be alarmed by the title. It’s truth time. The last few years have been something of a mind FUCk considering my sexuality. And I don’t mean in the way you’re thinking. Ever since I got boobs I was the center of attention for boys. Mix that with the fact that I was super tiny and had a Cute innocent face and I was basically a walking porno. And I won’t lie I always loved the attention. As I got older and became even more aware of my body and potential I became even more of a vixen. but somewhere along the line that’s ALL guys saw me as. And it started to bother me
And fuck with my mental health. I started to HATE my body and hate my boobs and hate everything about me that I used to love. I started to cover up, and I got rid of any revealing clothing. I didn’t wanna be that “vixen ” anymore. I stared searching for ways to be cute and childlike my look, so maybe just maybe I could find a guy who would like me based off of how cute I was and how much interest I had in several different things-marvel. DC. Art. Music. Books etc. I wanted to be the exact opposite of me. I Went into serious self
Loathing period where I Didn’t know who I was or what I wanted. But I wanted NOTHING to do with anything remotely sexual. This lasted on and off for about two years. Then i thought to myself, MEN are STUPID SHANISE. Just because they can’t separate your looks from your brains is NOT your fault. It’s theirs! They fail to realize you’re the WHOLE entire package not just some wetdream to be full field! And it was the guys you least expect (NERDS) with NO game or charm who decided they were gonna stick me in a one-dimensional box. I mean it was the stereotypical fine ass boys too,but mostly it was NERDS.
Which also made me realize it don’t matter what kind of boy he is and if he’s fine or not .a lot of them have a one track mind and it HAS nothing to do with you.
Men simply are just dumb and usually only think with their dicks. Not much we can do with that. But continue to thrive and be AWESOME.
I love my sexuality and I love my body and my TITTIES. And 🖕🏾 whoever got something to say about it and NO I won’t be your friends with benefits 🖕🏾🥰👏 not unless it’s on MY terms.
I’ve been so busy trying to change everything about me when I’m LIT just the way I am. And I’m worth so much more than my body.
Here are some of my favorite looks from the other night in no particular order.
I , a 28 year old women like creature has yet to experience real true genuine love.
Not for the lack of trying believe me. I’ve been on TONS of dates and something like dates, for the other person to disappear or only want sex. Romance is dead on my generation. No one opens the door anymore or buys you flowers.
I blame every romance novel and film for getting my hopes up. Nothing in the real world is even close to that. I mean I haven’t come across it yet.
I’ve been on the verge a few times but ending up falling short. Now this also very well could be the fact that I don’t put myself out there ALOT. I’m not sorry, I’ve done the whole party every weekend scene and it’s genuinely hard to find someone to connect to whilst they’re drunk. And would you believe that I haven’t randomly bumped into a handsome stranger for him to fall madly in love with me?! The utter outrage. Also let’s talk about dating sites because that’s how EVERYBODY is meeting their significant other now. I’ve been on a couple for like a week or so each. Nothing ever bites and when they do it’s for, you guessed it a HOOKUP. Why do guys just think you wanna fuck them right away!? Like I went on a date once where every time I asked a question about him he started to talk about something else. Which alone should’ve been a red flag. This one guy I had zero interest in at all messaged me and we went to high school together, so I though wow how random. I thought he was flirting because he wanted to date me and he was flirting because he just wanted sex.
Now can you see why I’m a little cynical.?! Not to mention almost every single guy I’ve had anything with in the last 10 years was a BUM. Sucking all of my light out of me. Literally, a STRAIGHT UP BUM. No ambition, no charm, no respect and sometimes no damn job. But that also is about me settling because I don’t wanna be ALONE.
But here I am almost (30), with 10 years worth of dating horror stories and growth! I’ve learned what I don’t want and what I do want!! And most importantly I’ve fallen madly in love with ME. And me deserves the flowers for no reason and being spoiled on her birthday by someone else. Me deserves someone to be genuinely interested in me and what I have to say. Me deserves someone making me waffles because they’re better than pancakes. Me deserves the BEst.
I’m going to school full time next week for 5 months and will I meet someone? Or a few someone’s?! I am in the environment where people meet other people, I’ll let you know how it goes.
Despite how negative this post is, I have high hopes for 2020! I will fall inlove. (Hopefully)
2020 is gonna be a big year for women and romance. Here are some of my most anticipated films of 2020.
1. Birds of prey
2. Wonder Woman :1984
3. After we collided
4. To all the boys: ps I still love you
5. Black widow
6. New Mutants
Will update this list as movie news comes out or my interest is peaked.
Have you ever watched one of our favorite shows back and go” wow so and so was actually so annoying ” how did my teenage self actually like this character?! Thank god for growth and maturity am I right!? Anywho here’s some of the most annoying characters ever from some of my favorite shows of the last 10 years!!
One tree hill- Lucas and hailey!!
When I was younger I loved Lucas and hailey and felt like they were the only good ones of the show. Now watching back, hailey and Lucas get on my damn nerves with all their morals and sitting on their high horses judging everybody. Eugh
Gossip Girl- xoxo you know you love me. Serena’s and dan and Jenny . Serena just thought the world revolved around her and fell inlove WITH EVERY SINGLE GUY THAT SAID SHE WAS PRETTY🙄. Jenny was just annoying and I hated how they wrote her character. She went from sweet and cute to annoying little brat. I was happy when she left the show to do music. ( the pretty reckless is my SHIT). Dan fucking Humphrey 🙄🙄🙄, another normal guy who is so much better than the rest cause he’s middle class and a “writer “. Not to mention his true sides came out more than once and he was just as ruthless as the others!! And he ended up being gossip girl which in hindsight I should’ve seen coming.
Teen Wolf- Allison. She wasn’t annoying until she found out about beacon hills/supernatural stuff. But she wasn’t as annoying as the others on the list. She just got on my nerves sometimes. And I was mad when the actress left the show to do “other acting jobs” and didn’t do any for years…. so looks like she should’ve rode that ride out. I would have. It’s a paying job with a huge and loyal fan base.
Vampire Diaries- Elena, Elena, Elena. Oh my god just watch vampire diaries back and she was so ridiculous for no reason and they really tried to make us believe that Stefan and DAMON was inlove with her?! For what?! She was so bland as a human and only became exciting when she was a vampire. And when Katherine was around. Other than that… I don’t see the Elena hype other than she was the boring moral compass. Maybe it’s the way Nina dobrev played her . But her acting as Katherine and when Elena turned off her humanity -*chef kiss*
The Originals- marcel! I tried over and over to relate to him and see his side of the story, homeboy was annoying from the moment he got on the screen . And whined way to much like damn. We get it , klaus was a shitty father figure.
Watch some of these shows back and watch these characters, you might agree with me.
Imagine as a nation how tired we are.
dummie trump has now declared war on Iran and all so his impeachment trial would be put on hold or stopped and because re-election is coming back up. I say this man is the dumbest not dumb person I’ve never not ever met. I genuinely hate that he’s our president and he makes America look ridiculously stupid. We are the laughing stock of the world. I sincerely hope EVERY person who took the election has a joke and wanted to give this moron a chance , sees this is every bit there fault as it is his and his stupid ass team. I’m over it and ready to go to Canada. I hate it here . Y’all were really worried about Hilary’s emails but look where we are NOW. Just LOOK.
Here are my favorite red carpet looks from Sunday’s golden globes.🍾❤️
Australia has been on fire for weeks according to every Aussie under the sun. But has just been brought to the media’s attention this past weekend. I do think in situations like this it’s AMAZING how humanity is somewhat restored and we come together as people to donate and help spread the word. But I have two points to make today. 1. When the Notre dame was burning down I couldn’t unsee that on every news station and every social media outlet and by the end of the day or week wasn’t over a million dollars raised to rebuild it? ( I could be wrong) but it seemed people were genuinely more outraged at that then an entire country being on fire. I know it’s easy to sit back and not care because it’s all the way on the other side of the world, but this affects all of us, wether we like it or not. Australia being on fire is a climate change issue!! And anyone who says otherwise is in denial. 2. The amount of rich as fuck celebrities begging the lower class to donate money is beyond lost on me. Yes we should all do what we can to help, but some of us don’t have it to help and feel immense guilt that we can’t donate hundreds of dollars . But celebrities can, if each of the richest celebrities donated at least 1 million, just 1 ,imagine the damage that can start to be undone. They’ve already lost over a billion of their animals! A BILLION. That’s more than half of their Animals heading towards extinction! Donate if you can! But also spread the word, and don’t feel bad if you can’t! Also make sure you’re donating to charities that are really gonna use the money to help the Australians. I know there’s been problems with Red Cross before.
And pray for Australia, because it could’ve been America. It could’ve been California, Florida, Arizona. It so easily could’ve been us and it still can happen to us if we don’t take climate change seriously.
The thing about being single is , I’ve been “single” or on my own for so long I’ve lost the interest to be with someone. I’ve had so many failed relationships it’s made me hard and unable to open up to anyone. It’s like why bother when I’ll probably just end up disappointed like I always am. Which I’m aware is a very negative way to go about life and love in general but alas here I am. With my walls built high and doing everything for myself. I buy my own flowers, take myself shopping, hype myself up, take myself on dates, I open my own pickle jars, kill the spiders on my own and if I want something , I buy it for myself. I don’t wait for some magical knight in shinning armor to buy it for me. In fact I feel very weird about guys buying me gifts in general. The point is once you’ve been single and let down so many times, it’s hard to open yourself up to love.
For 2020 I’m hoping I can get my shit together and try and let someone in. I don’t need anyone, but it would be nice to have someone sometimes. Maybe even if it’s just so they can open my pickle jar for me instead.