Map of the Soul:7

After listening a BILLION times and changing it over and over. I finally have my map of the soul 7 top songs! I would say top 5, but how could I possibly manage to only PICK 5!!!!??OUT of this entire masterpiece!?

1. Ugh!

2. Make it right

3. My time

4. On( y’all need to hype on more, the videos and performances should put this song in everyone’s top 5!!)

5. Filter

6.louder than bombs

7. Friends

8.00:00 (zero o clock)

9. Black swan

What’s your top 5 or top 10 of the map of the soul :7?! Yes I know I only did nine, figured I’d stop now before I list the entire album.

BLACKPINK in your area!

. BLACKPINK!!!!. Now I’ll be the first to admit…I was EXTREMELY nervous when it came to this album. Their first two singles ( even though they’ve grown on me now) were kind of a let down and repetitive. But lovesick girls didn’t let me down ONE BIT. From the actual single lovesick girls to the video, I AM LIVING. IM SHOOK….I actually low-key thought this album would sound the same. They really had me worried, but of course the girls came through and went SUPER HARD. and even have a few songs telling the haters to F off and they’re those girls for a reason!!

Favorites: PRETTY SAVAGE

Love to hate me

I’f you’ve been on the fence about blackpink or if you’re a black pink hater, listen to this album. It may change your mind!!! Either way the girls don’t care. And I’m living for SAVAGE BLACKPINK. YESSS GIRLS.

The Craft is finally here.

The Craft REBOOT OR REMAKE…I’m not quite sure which, but it’s finally here! Well the poster and trailer that it is. It seems to be trying to do something a bit different than the original while copying the original story line. So I’m honestly a bit confused on how it will play out. First impressions from the poster, I was HYPED. first impressions from the trailer, I’m big worried. It does look decent and the acting seems fine, it’s just when they’re showing the girls using magic it looks a little *disney* to me and cringe. I know sometimes trailers suck and don’t do the movie Justice. So I’ll hold out until I can actually watch the entire film to judge. I’m still excited for it, and of course it can’t replace or beat the original. But maybe it’s not trying to and it’s continuing the legacy, hence the movie name. They do make a few references to the original, so I’m very curious to see how it all plays out. You know the plot already, new lonely cute (white) girl moves to town and befriends a bunch of other lonely cute girls. I will say I like the little diversity we got going on this reboot. We have a CHOCOLATE black actress, a trans actress, a Jewish actress and then our white lead. I’m a fan of the actresses by themselves, so I’m also curious to see their on-screen chemistry. I also LOVE that it’s being released during October and just in time for the best Holiday ever-Halloween. It already gets points from me for that. Guess we will just have to wait until October 28 to see if it flops or it’s a Bop. I’m sure I’ll enjoy it either way. Are you down for the remake or over remakes ?! Let me know down below.

Why I’m so hard on Little Mix

I talk ALOT of mess when it comes to my girls. But I feel like I can do that. Because one, I’ve been a fan since X -factor days. I’ve watched them grow and get better with each album..I KNOW what they’re capable of. The damage they could really and truly do if they had a better team. There is no reason why little mix shouldn’t be up there with blackpink in terms of popularity!! They have the visuals, the VOCALS, the dance routines, the fashion and they come up with really cute ideas for each album. And they all actually love each other and love being in little mix. They just have a sucky team AND they don’t want to actually do the work. When holiday was being released and they had to choose between promo and vacation and they chose VACATION I was so aggravated. Like you all are NOT where y’all want to be with your careers and you’re choosing to go on a damn holiday!?!! I’ve recently gotten into kpop and the amount of work and time and details they put into their craft- I’m honestly SHOOK. little mix would never, which sucks because if they had the work ethic of a kpop artist they would be MASSIVE. I go so hard for them and I’m so hard on them because I know they can be the best!! They’re the best girl group we’ve gotten in years!!!! They have it all, and I’m not just gasing them up because I love them or because they’re pretty. They can actually SING AND DANCE . They have great music. Their ballads are untouchable!!! I just want the world to stop sleeping on them, I want them to finally get with a team that loves them and promotes them and I want them to work harder!! Because if they really push themselves, they could be the BEST GIRLGROUP OF ALL TIME. PERIOD!!! they’re almost there, like literally on the tip of worldwide success, they just gotta push a little harder and make more sacrifices. I know they can do it, I wish they felt that way too and pushed a little further and a little HARDER. WE ARE READY FOR THEM TO TAKE OVER THE WORLD.

Don’t EVER settle

I’ve finally reached that point in my life. The point where I realized I’m gonna be single for a while until I can find my equal. Ever since I’d become interested in boys and dating ,I settled. I may have not known it then, but any boy who called me cute or paid me any type of attention , had my heart. I didn’t care that they treated me like shit or they strung me along. As long as I had “someone”. Yes, I had super low self-esteem and was supper shy and had about a billion insecurities. I once wasted 10 years on a guy. Who was never my official boyfriend by the way. And never intended to be . But loved the girlfriend type things he got by being with me. Imagine the type of low worth man you have to be to string someone along for a decade when you know you’ll never commit to them. And Imagine how much I didn’t know my worth that I put up with it. He always made me feel like I wasn’t good enough for him, when truth is I was probably too good for him. I just didn’t know it. I’ve had more than enough of those type of relationships to last me a lifetime. Seriously, I’ve learned my lesson. My point being is I’ve settled for everything in my life

Jobs

Grades

Friends

Boys

I always accepted the bare minimum. Not until recently have I worked my butt off in every aspect of my life and stopped settling for the bare minimum. And guess what!? It’s cost me friends, and guys. But guess what I’ve gained? EVERYTHING I was supposed to become. I can no longer accpet the bare minimum and I don’t want too!! Those people were simply a distraction, keeping me from achieving my goals. So don’t settle! And if people fall off or leave…. Well LET THEM. They’re not meant to be in your life anyway. Does it absolutely suck being alone and single, especially during a pandemic!??? Yes!! , Trust me I know it does. But imagine the blessings that are about to enter your life for not settling. The best is yet to come and comes to those who are patient. We’re gonna make it, we won’t be alone forever.

Being Ambitious

If I’ve learned anything this year, it’s that when you’re overly ambitious people tend to either be scared of you or doubt you.

This is the busiest and most driven I’ve ever been and instead of being met with praise and positives, I feel like I’m being met with negativity and doubters. I feel people pulling away from me. I feel people rolling their eyes when I talk about my goals and ambitions. I don’t always get the same support I put out. I’ve noticed I’m the only one going hard for my brand. And you know what!?

That’s fine with me. I’ve got an insatiable hunger now that I’ve gotten a taste of what it means to be a boss and I honestly love it. I find myself no longer wanting to be around people who don’t have that same hunger . I now longer look at men who do the bare minimum and get excited about it. In my eyes if I’m doing xyz and beyond, so do you. I can’t sit at a table where there’s no talk of substance going on. I can’t even begin to think about dating you if you’re not matching my energy and being just as busy if not busier than me. What I want, I get but only because I’m willing to work my ass off for it. If you can’t keep up, I suggest you move to the side So I can get it done. I’m no longer waiting on anyone to get what I need done. I’m doing it by myself and for myself.

2020 isn’t really all that bad..

2020 has been quite the year already and it’s not even over yet. But while the whole world seems to falling apart and trying to heal itself, I’ve been having one the most productive and busiest years of my life. Who knew all it took was covid and lockdown to kick my ass into gear. All the things I’ve wanted to do for YEARS, I finally did. Nothing stood in my way. But I’ve noticed Everytime I’m on a high and I’m getting it done , something is thrown in my way to distract me( most of the time it’s boys) . I can’t help but wonder if the universe is testing me or if the devil sees what I’m becoming and is trying to knock me down. I allow myself to get distracted by useless things and then I’m in a rut for days. Then when I come out of said rut I’m left confused as to why I even let whatever it was brother me for so long. And like GIRL WE GOT SHIT TO DO. There’s no time for tears. I’ve also noticed the more distracted I become the harder I work when I come back to my senses. Either way you want to spin it, this year has been incredible for me.

. Started my own busines

.Started writing my very first book(surprise)

.launched my YouTube channel

When I look at how much I’ve accomplished I’m SHOOK. WHO knew the little ol depressed girl would become all of this! It’s easy to look at what’s in front of you and get discouraged. But you don’t know the bigger picture. You have no idea what’s waiting for you in the end . If you would have told me 4 years ago I would be halfway through finishing uni , owning a business, running a blog and YouTube channel. I would have laughed in your face . This new me I’ve become is worth so much more and so worth protecting. I’m excited to see what the future holds. No more letting distractions win . I’VE GOT SHIT TO DO.

Being ” high maintenance”

I often here men say how they don’t want a women who’s “high maintenance”. What they’re really saying is , they don’t want a women who’s gonna take effort to keep happy. Meaning they want women they can do the bare minimum for and everything will be okay. They don’t want to have to go the extra mile. When lazy men see high maintenance women they get nervous, here’s a women who’s on her shit and keeping herself together and they know they can’t keep up. So they try and make her feel like shit and tell her she’s doing too much or she’s too much work. When in reality he just needs to work harder. Being high maintenance is not a bad thing. All it means is you take great care of yourself and you hold yourself to the highest standards. You also tend to hold everyone else around you to highest standards as well. Being with a high maintenance women should make men want to up their game and be better and do better. Stop using high maintenance as an insult and get your shit together. Don’t hate on her because she has it together. Get your shit together and level up with her .

Why the company you keep is actually important

I like to believe I’m a pretty laid back person, actually I know I am . Which means I can pretty much befriend and gel with ANYBODY. Growing up I was always friends with such a diverse group of people. And it was always a issue for me, I learned pretty quickly that your friend groups aren’t going to always mesh well and it’s sometimes better to keep them separate to avoid all the drama. However the older I get and the more refined and polished I become , I’ve noticed that certain types of people I can no longer mesh with. I hate to judge people off first impressions and the way they carry themselves but I DO. IM all about first impressions, but I’m also a nice dummy who trys to befriend everyone and make everyone feel included. I often ignore the warning signs telling me this person is not for me and it’s gonna end bad, mostly because the voice in my head is my own worst enemy at times and it’s hard to believe her. And because I like to give people the benefit of the doubt no matter how much my gut is telling me not to . I’ve noticed when I hang with those people , I don’t feel like I can be myself and I have to make myself small and keep certain things about me locked away. Out of fear of them thinking I’m stuck up or too liberal or whatever. I lower my frequency to try and match theirs. Then when it all blows up over something stupid (because it always does) I end up feeling drained and like “why did I even waste my time?” I knew deep down this person was not for me but I STILL tried to make it work.

You can absolutely be friends with different types of people, but sometimes there’s people you don’t need to be friends with and you know it. Not that they’re beneath me or anything, it’s just their presence adds no value to my life or well being. I used to not care who I surrounded myself with. Now as I move forward and up with my life, I like to surround myself only with powerful women. Women who aren’t about pettiness and drama, but about their careers and business and being a better person. When you surround yourself with lo-class people with no ambition that’s what you become sooner or later. When you surround yourself with people who work hard and strive for the best, it pushes you to want to be a better person and to work harder.

I’m DONE with people who don’t match my hustle or frequency. They can stay low while I go high!!

Funny thing

Here’s the thing, I was bullied Throughout school. From elementary to highschool. Not to bad but bad enough where I didn’t want to go to school and never spoke a word of it to my family. And it was always the same type of girls- loud, and insecure. It bothered me that these girls didn’t like me, even though they had no reason to. So I worked constantly to become someone they would like, changed myself, and made myself smaller so they would be happy. Did it work,? Sure did, those same bullies that hated me now we’re my friends. They went on and on about how pretty I was and how funny I was. Funny how they didn’t think that before I changed. Flash forward to my adult life and I’m still dealing with those same type of girls-. Except now they’re grown women in their 30s and with kids. It baffles me how those girls never really grew up and now they’re adult bullies still trying to make me feel like shit for being myself. Well guess what? SCREW THEM!!! Im not gonna make myself small to make these adult bullies happy, if you can’t take me in all my dry, sarcastic humor, then you just can’tt take me ! And that’s okay. I’ve never intentionally set out to upset anyone, I’ve always just been myself. Which has upset a certain type of girls- my whole life.
It took me years to finally realize you won’t be for everybody and not everyone will like you unless you change yourself to make them happy. But I’m not 12 anymore and they don’t scare me, I will no longer live small so they can live large. And if people constantly hate on you because of personality traits and it bothers them, you must really be that BITCH.( Sorry mum)

PS.- adult bullies are really sad and pathetic. Grow up and perhaps get a hobby.