Happy ONE YEAR ASTOLDBYSHANISE 🥂🍾

Do you know what today is? It’s my blogs anniversary!!!!! Happy one year to my greatest joy. You’ve grown so much in just a year! Here’s to another killer year 🍾👩🏾‍💻 2020 let’s get it!!!

Camille is not a fan of fine line?

If you’ve been living under a rock, you wouldn’t know that French American model Camille Rowe was the muse behind 90% of fine line. And what a beautiful tribute to a maybe doomed relationship from the start. The beginning of fine line is all about falling inlove and falling fast , and willing to

Risk it all for each other. Harry was beyond smitten!

The middle of fine line chronicles the breakup and the feeling miserable and the drunk calling the ex(to be so lonely anyone). The also I hate you phase and I don’t wanna be your friend.

The end is all about accepting the break up and learning to be happy again.

All in all a great album! But Camille doesn’t seem to like it all that much. She gave a interview last week saying the album was “intrusive “. And while we as fans can sit back and think “wow what a gorgeous album he really loved her “, there’s two sides to every story and obviously she’s not happy with the world knowing so much. It can be hard to be the muse of a huge celebrity, after that, that’s all the media paints you as. And all of a sudden she’s getting all this unwanted attention, it must be overwhelming. And now fans are starting to attack her again and for what?’ She actually dated him for over a year and she’s allowed to feel the way she feels over all of this . I hope she can find some common ground with harry and learn to be comfortable with fine line.

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I can’t wait to finally be SEEN. For someone to look at me and really SEE me . To really know me like I know me. To understand me. To actually listen to me. To notice things about me that I don’t have to tell them. To love me the way I love me. I can’t wait to finally be SEEN. It’s just lonely being the only one who knows ME.

Welcome poppy

Do you know how long I’ve been waiting for this type of -pop/rock/metal music to make a comeback?! My little emo/goth soul needed it!! I’m SO happy I’ve found poppy. Every single song in disagree is a BOP. Every one. Ever since Demi lovato started making pop music and the pretty reckless, I didn’t care for their last album so I’ve been seriously empty for a while. But miss poppy has revived me!! This album is seriously a 10/10 and goes right up there with my best albums of 2020. Every single song sounds different and the production is INSANE.

I used to see her everywhere a couple of years ago but she was so annoying just saying her name over and over. I’m glad she’s found a new direction and it seems less forced.

Her music takes me back to 2009-2013 and I’m here for it! Welcome poppy, I needed you.💀☠️❤️

Vanessa is a bad boy for life

Newley single Vanessa hudgens looking stunning on the bad boys for life red carpet! This look is very extra and over the top. And I’m all for it. This is one of my favorite Vanessa looks she’s ever done. And she’s simply glowing. I’m excited to see what single life looks like for Vanessa. She’s been in long term relationships ever since high school musical. So this should be interesting to see. As always, I wish her the best and more success.

Sex

Don’t be alarmed by the title. It’s truth time. The last few years have been something of a mind FUCk considering my sexuality. And I don’t mean in the way you’re thinking. Ever since I got boobs I was the center of attention for boys. Mix that with the fact that I was super tiny and had a Cute innocent face and I was basically a walking porno. And I won’t lie I always loved the attention. As I got older and became even more aware of my body and potential I became even more of a vixen. but somewhere along the line that’s ALL guys saw me as. And it started to bother me

And fuck with my mental health. I started to HATE my body and hate my boobs and hate everything about me that I used to love. I started to cover up, and I got rid of any revealing clothing. I didn’t wanna be that “vixen ” anymore. I stared searching for ways to be cute and childlike my look, so maybe just maybe I could find a guy who would like me based off of how cute I was and how much interest I had in several different things-marvel. DC. Art. Music. Books etc. I wanted to be the exact opposite of me. I Went into serious self

Loathing period where I Didn’t know who I was or what I wanted. But I wanted NOTHING to do with anything remotely sexual. This lasted on and off for about two years. Then i thought to myself, MEN are STUPID SHANISE. Just because they can’t separate your looks from your brains is NOT your fault. It’s theirs! They fail to realize you’re the WHOLE entire package not just some wetdream to be full field! And it was the guys you least expect (NERDS) with NO game or charm who decided they were gonna stick me in a one-dimensional box. I mean it was the stereotypical fine ass boys too,but mostly it was NERDS.

Which also made me realize it don’t matter what kind of boy he is and if he’s fine or not .a lot of them have a one track mind and it HAS nothing to do with you.

Men simply are just dumb and usually only think with their dicks. Not much we can do with that. But continue to thrive and be AWESOME.

I love my sexuality and I love my body and my TITTIES. And 🖕🏾 whoever got something to say about it and NO I won’t be your friends with benefits 🖕🏾🥰👏 not unless it’s on MY terms.

I’ve been so busy trying to change everything about me when I’m LIT just the way I am. And I’m worth so much more than my body.

The end