Within the last week this song has BLOWN UP and it’s all over instagram and tiktok. Misa olivia is indeed having a moment hunny. Now I’ve been following olivia since highschool musical the musical came out last year. So I already knew the girl was a cutie and had MAJOR PIPES. But I was still blown away by her first solo single and video. Listening to driver’s license for the first time makes me feel like I’m back in highschool having my heart broken for the first time. ” Guess you didn’t mean what you wrote in that song about me”, is the gut wrenching line that stands out the most and she sings with so much pain and love, it makes you emotional. The song is doing so well it topped one of her idols ( Taylor Swift), on the charts. Like I said Miss Olivia Rodrigo is indeed having a moment and she is the moment and honestly HAS been the moment since high school musical the musical debuted. I’m going to need you guys to wake up and act like you know. What a debut, congrats on all your success. And whoever she wrote this song about, is looking like a whole sick dummy right now.
Now I’ll be the first to say I’m not the slightest bit racist and I was raised to treat everyone fairly. And I think the majority of decent human beings would say the same. But it hasn’t occurred to me until recently how MUCH ignorance and racism occurs towards the Asian Community . I can talk for years about how being black in America and being a Black Woman period, is an everyday struggle and Everytime it feels like you take 1 giant step forward for black people by breaking the “loud, ghetto, stereotypes” you take 1,000 steps back. It’s an ongoing cycle. But what I’ve noticed about the Asian Community, especially this year with (Covid-19) , is that we’ve all been guilty of being a little ignorant, even if we didn’t mean to. We’ve all made fun of the nail shop women, we’ve all said chinese food is rats and bats, and some of us have made fun of the shape of their eyes. And yes all of that is RACIST. Am I racist? No!, Have I done those things? Yes and of course I’m shamed. Because I wouldn’t want anyone to make black jokes and think it’s funny, when it’s not. Why is it okay for us to constantly bash them ,joking or not, but CONSTANTLY TAKE FROM THEIR CULTURE? We wouldn’t have half of the coolest things if it wasn’t for Asian culture. I’m talking chinese food, kung-fu movies, those same amazing nail shop women hooking out nails up, sushi, sailor moon, and some of the most amazing artists in the world .
When covid happened , Everyone became extremely racist against Asians. Because they didn’t want to catch the” chinese virus”. Which in itself is ignorant, because as soon as they found out about it ,they tried to contain it. And not all Asians are chinese . These people started to loose business in their shops and even asian Uber drives couldn’t get work.
It’s also extremely racist and WEIRD to be OBSESSED with asian culture, especially if you’re not ASIAN. You can appreciate the culture without going overboard and being offensive. Meaning ,if you are gonna wear certain symbols, know the actual meaning. Same goes for tattoos, if you don’t know what it really means, don’t get it tattooed. And DON’T befriend or only date someone because they’re asian then proceeded to only talk to them about karate and sushi etc., I can NOT stress enough how offensive that is and RACIST. and will make them highly uncomfortable. Not all Asians like karate or eat sushi, just like not all black people like fried chicken and watermelon.( I HATE watermelon). Just be considerate and be NORMAL. Don’t be creepy.
Before I got into Bts and K-pop, I was one of THOSE people who bashed it . Not ruthlessly, but I didn’t get it. I didn’t understand the hype around the “pasty Asians”, ( trust me I cringe now when I think about it). It wasn’t until I took all the underlining xenophobic thoughts out of my head ,was I able to fully enjoy a whole new genre of music and TALENT. Because oh man, Asian artist’s are just on a whole different level ENTIRELY. But I think that goes for the entire of Asia. They just seem to be living in future. Back to the point , I’m now made fun of for liking Bts and Those “Asians”. And people are constantly telling me they ” DON’T GET IT” and asking me”you really like Asians?”or just recently I said I wouldn’t mind dating an Asian guy/girl and my coworker said” okay where do they hang out at?” , as if they’re entirely a different species. Whether you know it or not, you contribute to xenophobia when you say things like that, even if you don’t necessarily mean it that way. Asians are people too. Hate to break it to you, but they bleed blood, poop out of their bum holes and walk around on like normal people just like Americans. This could also be the reason why alot of them are not fond of foreigners and americans and trust me I get it. But I think americans as a whole need to do better. You are HUMANS first and americans next. You can’t love a entire culture but hate the community it comes from and treat them like shit. ( Much how people hate black people but CONSTANTLY steal from black culture). This is not coming from a korea-boo ( I don’t want to move to korea) , or a weeaboo( I don’t watch anime). This is coming from a human who’s made alot of those same mistakes but has learned from them and grown to love and appreciate the Asian culture. I’m writing this to say, if you love Asian culture, you have to love Asian people as well. You can NOT have one without the other.
Ps. It is not lost on me how the industry treats Asians as well. We rarely get any all asian cast films, or tv shows and the Asian artist’s get treated like crap when they come to America and not taken seriously. And They rarely get nominated for big awards( grammys, oscars). America as a whole is extremely XENOPHOBIC AND THAT NEEDS TO END ASAP!!
I’ve finally reached that point in my life. The point where I realized I’m gonna be single for a while until I can find my equal. Ever since I’d become interested in boys and dating ,I settled. I may have not known it then, but any boy who called me cute or paid me any type of attention , had my heart. I didn’t care that they treated me like shit or they strung me along. As long as I had “someone”. Yes, I had super low self-esteem and was supper shy and had about a billion insecurities. I once wasted 10 years on a guy. Who was never my official boyfriend by the way. And never intended to be . But loved the girlfriend type things he got by being with me. Imagine the type of low worth man you have to be to string someone along for a decade when you know you’ll never commit to them. And Imagine how much I didn’t know my worth that I put up with it. He always made me feel like I wasn’t good enough for him, when truth is I was probably too good for him. I just didn’t know it. I’ve had more than enough of those type of relationships to last me a lifetime. Seriously, I’ve learned my lesson. My point being is I’ve settled for everything in my life
I always accepted the bare minimum. Not until recently have I worked my butt off in every aspect of my life and stopped settling for the bare minimum. And guess what!? It’s cost me friends, and guys. But guess what I’ve gained? EVERYTHING I was supposed to become. I can no longer accpet the bare minimum and I don’t want too!! Those people were simply a distraction, keeping me from achieving my goals. So don’t settle! And if people fall off or leave…. Well LET THEM. They’re not meant to be in your life anyway. Does it absolutely suck being alone and single, especially during a pandemic!??? Yes!! , Trust me I know it does. But imagine the blessings that are about to enter your life for not settling. The best is yet to come and comes to those who are patient. We’re gonna make it, we won’t be alone forever.
If I’ve learned anything this year, it’s that when you’re overly ambitious people tend to either be scared of you or doubt you.
This is the busiest and most driven I’ve ever been and instead of being met with praise and positives, I feel like I’m being met with negativity and doubters. I feel people pulling away from me. I feel people rolling their eyes when I talk about my goals and ambitions. I don’t always get the same support I put out. I’ve noticed I’m the only one going hard for my brand. And you know what!?
That’s fine with me. I’ve got an insatiable hunger now that I’ve gotten a taste of what it means to be a boss and I honestly love it. I find myself no longer wanting to be around people who don’t have that same hunger . I now longer look at men who do the bare minimum and get excited about it. In my eyes if I’m doing xyz and beyond, so do you. I can’t sit at a table where there’s no talk of substance going on. I can’t even begin to think about dating you if you’re not matching my energy and being just as busy if not busier than me. What I want, I get but only because I’m willing to work my ass off for it. If you can’t keep up, I suggest you move to the side So I can get it done. I’m no longer waiting on anyone to get what I need done. I’m doing it by myself and for myself.
I’ve been feeling low latley and feeling like God has left me to suffer. I often ask him “why would you make me this way only for people to not understand me or like me” . But the thing with God is who you are is exactly who you’re meant to be. If the people in your life don’t like you or understand you, those people aren’t meant to be in your life. Period. When the same type of negative , manipulative people come into your life over and over , God is trying to teach you a lesson. Those people aren’t for you and you deserve better. But until you see that and believe it, he’s going to keep testing you.
I don’t know what God has in store for me. And I sometimes get impatient because I’m ready for my BLESSINGS NOW. But I know God has something AMAZING for me. It has to be, there’s no way he would take away something bad to only be left with nothing at all. And from what he’s done for me so far…. I can only imagine the blessings I’m about to be rolling in.
2020 has been quite the year already and it’s not even over yet. But while the whole world seems to falling apart and trying to heal itself, I’ve been having one the most productive and busiest years of my life. Who knew all it took was covid and lockdown to kick my ass into gear. All the things I’ve wanted to do for YEARS, I finally did. Nothing stood in my way. But I’ve noticed Everytime I’m on a high and I’m getting it done , something is thrown in my way to distract me( most of the time it’s boys) . I can’t help but wonder if the universe is testing me or if the devil sees what I’m becoming and is trying to knock me down. I allow myself to get distracted by useless things and then I’m in a rut for days. Then when I come out of said rut I’m left confused as to why I even let whatever it was brother me for so long. And like GIRL WE GOT SHIT TO DO. There’s no time for tears. I’ve also noticed the more distracted I become the harder I work when I come back to my senses. Either way you want to spin it, this year has been incredible for me.
. Started my own busines
.Started writing my very first book(surprise)
.launched my YouTube channel
When I look at how much I’ve accomplished I’m SHOOK. WHO knew the little ol depressed girl would become all of this! It’s easy to look at what’s in front of you and get discouraged. But you don’t know the bigger picture. You have no idea what’s waiting for you in the end . If you would have told me 4 years ago I would be halfway through finishing uni , owning a business, running a blog and YouTube channel. I would have laughed in your face . This new me I’ve become is worth so much more and so worth protecting. I’m excited to see what the future holds. No more letting distractions win . I’VE GOT SHIT TO DO.