Why I’m so hard on Little Mix

I talk ALOT of mess when it comes to my girls. But I feel like I can do that. Because one, I’ve been a fan since X -factor days. I’ve watched them grow and get better with each album..I KNOW what they’re capable of. The damage they could really and truly do if they had a better team. There is no reason why little mix shouldn’t be up there with blackpink in terms of popularity!! They have the visuals, the VOCALS, the dance routines, the fashion and they come up with really cute ideas for each album. And they all actually love each other and love being in little mix. They just have a sucky team AND they don’t want to actually do the work. When holiday was being released and they had to choose between promo and vacation and they chose VACATION I was so aggravated. Like you all are NOT where y’all want to be with your careers and you’re choosing to go on a damn holiday!?!! I’ve recently gotten into kpop and the amount of work and time and details they put into their craft- I’m honestly SHOOK. little mix would never, which sucks because if they had the work ethic of a kpop artist they would be MASSIVE. I go so hard for them and I’m so hard on them because I know they can be the best!! They’re the best girl group we’ve gotten in years!!!! They have it all, and I’m not just gasing them up because I love them or because they’re pretty. They can actually SING AND DANCE . They have great music. Their ballads are untouchable!!! I just want the world to stop sleeping on them, I want them to finally get with a team that loves them and promotes them and I want them to work harder!! Because if they really push themselves, they could be the BEST GIRLGROUP OF ALL TIME. PERIOD!!! they’re almost there, like literally on the tip of worldwide success, they just gotta push a little harder and make more sacrifices. I know they can do it, I wish they felt that way too and pushed a little further and a little HARDER. WE ARE READY FOR THEM TO TAKE OVER THE WORLD.

Don’t EVER settle

I’ve finally reached that point in my life. The point where I realized I’m gonna be single for a while until I can find my equal. Ever since I’d become interested in boys and dating ,I settled. I may have not known it then, but any boy who called me cute or paid me any type of attention , had my heart. I didn’t care that they treated me like shit or they strung me along. As long as I had “someone”. Yes, I had super low self-esteem and was supper shy and had about a billion insecurities. I once wasted 10 years on a guy. Who was never my official boyfriend by the way. And never intended to be . But loved the girlfriend type things he got by being with me. Imagine the type of low worth man you have to be to string someone along for a decade when you know you’ll never commit to them. And Imagine how much I didn’t know my worth that I put up with it. He always made me feel like I wasn’t good enough for him, when truth is I was probably too good for him. I just didn’t know it. I’ve had more than enough of those type of relationships to last me a lifetime. Seriously, I’ve learned my lesson. My point being is I’ve settled for everything in my life

Jobs

Grades

Friends

Boys

I always accepted the bare minimum. Not until recently have I worked my butt off in every aspect of my life and stopped settling for the bare minimum. And guess what!? It’s cost me friends, and guys. But guess what I’ve gained? EVERYTHING I was supposed to become. I can no longer accpet the bare minimum and I don’t want too!! Those people were simply a distraction, keeping me from achieving my goals. So don’t settle! And if people fall off or leave…. Well LET THEM. They’re not meant to be in your life anyway. Does it absolutely suck being alone and single, especially during a pandemic!??? Yes!! , Trust me I know it does. But imagine the blessings that are about to enter your life for not settling. The best is yet to come and comes to those who are patient. We’re gonna make it, we won’t be alone forever.

Funny thing

Here’s the thing, I was bullied Throughout school. From elementary to highschool. Not to bad but bad enough where I didn’t want to go to school and never spoke a word of it to my family. And it was always the same type of girls- loud, and insecure. It bothered me that these girls didn’t like me, even though they had no reason to. So I worked constantly to become someone they would like, changed myself, and made myself smaller so they would be happy. Did it work,? Sure did, those same bullies that hated me now we’re my friends. They went on and on about how pretty I was and how funny I was. Funny how they didn’t think that before I changed. Flash forward to my adult life and I’m still dealing with those same type of girls-. Except now they’re grown women in their 30s and with kids. It baffles me how those girls never really grew up and now they’re adult bullies still trying to make me feel like shit for being myself. Well guess what? SCREW THEM!!! Im not gonna make myself small to make these adult bullies happy, if you can’t take me in all my dry, sarcastic humor, then you just can’tt take me ! And that’s okay. I’ve never intentionally set out to upset anyone, I’ve always just been myself. Which has upset a certain type of girls- my whole life.
It took me years to finally realize you won’t be for everybody and not everyone will like you unless you change yourself to make them happy. But I’m not 12 anymore and they don’t scare me, I will no longer live small so they can live large. And if people constantly hate on you because of personality traits and it bothers them, you must really be that BITCH.( Sorry mum)

PS.- adult bullies are really sad and pathetic. Grow up and perhaps get a hobby.

Holiday first reaction

Feeling old and dusted at 29

Something very strange happened within the months of vivid becoming a thing and my 29th birthday coming up…. I started reading these crappy sexual heterosexual novels and wanting to all of a sudden be married and have kids‼️ if you personally know me, it came out of nowhere and was super sudden and annoying. I was dressing more girly and acting less like myself and MORE like what I thought a almost 30 year old should be like. I got into the mindset of “if I want a husband I’ve got to fix myself and be perfect first” and let me tell you one thing:PERFECTION does not exist !! Although I have become super busy and have found happiness in building a business and furthering my blog, and you know becoming a GIRLBOSS. I still felt half empty… like okay my time is winding down and I don’t wanna be a old mom, I need to find a MAN now and be married and have my baby before it’s too late. Like this is a constant anxiety loop for me for the past few months. And I can’t decide if it’s because of quarantine and not being able to meet new people or being in my last year of my 20s and feeling like romantically I’m not where I’m suppose to be. Which is silly right?! Because nowhere in real life is it mandatory to have a husband and baby and that equals automatic HAPPINESS. I generally haven’t been attracted to real life men in like two years. So my sudden need for marriage and to be a wife was overwhelming me. Suffocating me. But thing is… I put this pressure on myself and it’s quite silly to be worked up over such trivial things. To put so much of my worth and thought process into being the right kind of women a man will want to marry… when in all honesty FUCK MEN( not the select good few) but the overall population of men SUCK.

So as I sit here and coming to the conclusion that I don’t need to rush myself to find a MAN AND BE A WIFE. I’m dope as well without a man and I’m sure as hell not settling for some mediocre man at that, just so I can say I have one. I’m writing this to remind myself how badass I really am and how even At times were I feel low and feel like a complete failure when it comes to men: IM NOT. And hey there’s always women. the right guy (or girl) will come along and sweep you off your feet. And you will look back at this post and be like damn… I was BUGGING.

We must do better

I’m tired of writing RIP next to a black photo of a man or woman. I’m tired of feeling so heartbroken and defeated about being black in America. I’m tired of of white people pretending to be scared of us, just so they can get rid of us. I’m tired of fearing for my nephews.. brothers and cousin’s Everytime they leave the house to do normal Everyday tasks.

I’m tired

We are tired.

We’ve had enough.

This will not go on any longer. We won’t allow it.

#NOJUSTICENOPEACE

Do it review

Why you all continue to sleep on chloexhalle is beyond me. These girls literally write and produce most if not ALL of their music . And they’re adorable and super humble. Not to mention queen B has Become their mentor. their debut album THE KIDS ARE ALRIGHT, was released in 2018 and was nominated for a few Grammys! No big deal right? Not to mention they toured with Beyoncé and act on the hit young adult show, GROWNISH. These girls are it and more. Do it is their upcoming single off their new album UNGODLY HOUR. And it’s a BOP!! It’s infectious and gets stuck in your head. The video makes the song even better. The looks, the visuals, the choreography, the girls said here let us feed y’all during this pandemic. And boy did they feed us. With DO IT, they’re showing us how they’re truly grown now.[refrence to their first album) and I think I can speak for all of us when I say we are here for it.

She’s sorry…

If you’ve been living under a very huge rock then you wouldn’t know that Doja cat was being cancelled YET AGAIN, but this time for being a racist. The rumor spread pretty quickly and within hours the Star was being cancelled for being in chat rooms being weird and racist with fans. Doja posted last night that she’s sorry and didn’t mean to offend anyone. She also said she’s not racist and loves her black heritage! She did admit to being in those chat rooms and that she probably shouldn’t have been. My thing with this whole debacle is , 1. Canceling someone never solves anything. And more than half the time it makes them more popular and people tend to sweep whatever offensive thing the star did under the rug(Camilla cabello). And 2. If she admits to being in the chatrooms who’s to say she hasn’t said those things?! What on earth are you doing in those type of chat rooms that hate everything you are? I believe she’s sorry? But I also believe she may have said a racist thing or two and tried to mask it as a joke. What do you all think?! Is Doja really sorry? Or just sorry she got caught?

Rain on me

Lady gaga and Ariana did what they had to do PERIOD!!! “I rather be dry but at least I’m alive”, I’m so happy Gaga has returned to the gaga we all know and fell in love with!! I understand she wanted to try other things and genres but this music is truly her lane!!! I LOVE this song and it’s video. I’m living for the robotic/alien early 2000s looks. It was perfect with gaga but you add Ariana and IM BALD HONEY!!! The looks, the choreography , the vibes , the message! This is the song we all needed but didn’t know we needed. It’s been on repeat since its debut! I can just imagine this song during pride and it makes me so GIDDY but sad that ms. Rona came and ruined our summer. I was surprised to see Ariana keep up with Gaga’s routines and happy gaga didn’t out-dance her and she stayed on the same pace with Ariana. This is an entire summer BOP. 5/5, check it out! I’m LOVING ALL these female features all the girls have been doing and I’m LIVING for this era GAGA!

Watermelon sugar 🍉🍓

Harry heard our cries and FINALLY released watermelon sugar -the video! Not only is the video super colorful and fun, It’s 70s fashion themed and a total vibe!! There’s women all of different sizes and colors !! And this is what we like to call diversity Huns!! Harry genuinely looks happy, relaxed and to be having the time of his life. Watermelon sugar is about -look away prudes- *oral sex* and how you just can’t get enough. So afcourse we have harry and the models eating a lot of fruit and we even have the women having orgasms. The whole video is like a giant fruity hippie orgy and IM HERE FOR IT!!! Mr. styles never disappoints . Check it out and get that summer feeling that we most definitely won’t be getting due to Corvid-19.