Something very strange happened within the months of vivid becoming a thing and my 29th birthday coming up…. I started reading these crappy sexual heterosexual novels and wanting to all of a sudden be married and have kids‼️ if you personally know me, it came out of nowhere and was super sudden and annoying. I was dressing more girly and acting less like myself and MORE like what I thought a almost 30 year old should be like. I got into the mindset of “if I want a husband I’ve got to fix myself and be perfect first” and let me tell you one thing:PERFECTION does not exist !! Although I have become super busy and have found happiness in building a business and furthering my blog, and you know becoming a GIRLBOSS. I still felt half empty… like okay my time is winding down and I don’t wanna be a old mom, I need to find a MAN now and be married and have my baby before it’s too late. Like this is a constant anxiety loop for me for the past few months. And I can’t decide if it’s because of quarantine and not being able to meet new people or being in my last year of my 20s and feeling like romantically I’m not where I’m suppose to be. Which is silly right?! Because nowhere in real life is it mandatory to have a husband and baby and that equals automatic HAPPINESS. I generally haven’t been attracted to real life men in like two years. So my sudden need for marriage and to be a wife was overwhelming me. Suffocating me. But thing is… I put this pressure on myself and it’s quite silly to be worked up over such trivial things. To put so much of my worth and thought process into being the right kind of women a man will want to marry… when in all honesty FUCK MEN( not the select good few) but the overall population of men SUCK.
So as I sit here and coming to the conclusion that I don’t need to rush myself to find a MAN AND BE A WIFE. I’m dope as well without a man and I’m sure as hell not settling for some mediocre man at that, just so I can say I have one. I’m writing this to remind myself how badass I really am and how even At times were I feel low and feel like a complete failure when it comes to men: IM NOT. And hey there’s always women. the right guy (or girl) will come along and sweep you off your feet. And you will look back at this post and be like damn… I was BUGGING.
I’m tired of writing RIP next to a black photo of a man or woman. I’m tired of feeling so heartbroken and defeated about being black in America. I’m tired of of white people pretending to be scared of us, just so they can get rid of us. I’m tired of fearing for my nephews.. brothers and cousin’s Everytime they leave the house to do normal Everyday tasks.
We are tired.
We’ve had enough.
This will not go on any longer. We won’t allow it.
Why you all continue to sleep on chloexhalle is beyond me. These girls literally write and produce most if not ALL of their music . And they’re adorable and super humble. Not to mention queen B has Become their mentor. their debut album THE KIDS ARE ALRIGHT, was released in 2018 and was nominated for a few Grammys! No big deal right? Not to mention they toured with Beyoncé and act on the hit young adult show, GROWNISH. These girls are it and more. Do it is their upcoming single off their new album UNGODLY HOUR. And it’s a BOP!! It’s infectious and gets stuck in your head. The video makes the song even better. The looks, the visuals, the choreography, the girls said here let us feed y’all during this pandemic. And boy did they feed us. With DO IT, they’re showing us how they’re truly grown now.[refrence to their first album) and I think I can speak for all of us when I say we are here for it.
If you’ve been living under a very huge rock then you wouldn’t know that Doja cat was being cancelled YET AGAIN, but this time for being a racist. The rumor spread pretty quickly and within hours the Star was being cancelled for being in chat rooms being weird and racist with fans. Doja posted last night that she’s sorry and didn’t mean to offend anyone. She also said she’s not racist and loves her black heritage! She did admit to being in those chat rooms and that she probably shouldn’t have been. My thing with this whole debacle is , 1. Canceling someone never solves anything. And more than half the time it makes them more popular and people tend to sweep whatever offensive thing the star did under the rug(Camilla cabello). And 2. If she admits to being in the chatrooms who’s to say she hasn’t said those things?! What on earth are you doing in those type of chat rooms that hate everything you are? I believe she’s sorry? But I also believe she may have said a racist thing or two and tried to mask it as a joke. What do you all think?! Is Doja really sorry? Or just sorry she got caught?
Harry heard our cries and FINALLY released watermelon sugar -the video! Not only is the video super colorful and fun, It’s 70s fashion themed and a total vibe!! There’s women all of different sizes and colors !! And this is what we like to call diversity Huns!! Harry genuinely looks happy, relaxed and to be having the time of his life. Watermelon sugar is about -look away prudes- *oral sex* and how you just can’t get enough. So afcourse we have harry and the models eating a lot of fruit and we even have the women having orgasms. The whole video is like a giant fruity hippie orgy and IM HERE FOR IT!!! Mr. styles never disappoints . Check it out and get that summer feeling that we most definitely won’t be getting due to Corvid-19.
Here’s what I’ve been listening to while in quarantine. It must be something in the water , because artists are dropping fire music left and right. Ps I’m currently waiting on lady Gaga ft Ariana grande 🔥 because I’m sure I’ll be bald after that.
1. Break up song-little mix
2. Do it-chloexhalle
3.stupid love- lady gaga
4.comeback-jojo ft Tory lanez
What’s some new music you guys have been listening too? Drop some new music for me to get into in the comments ⬇️
If corona has taught us anything it’s to appreciate the little things in life we would take for granted. Here’s some of the simple things I miss terribly that I took for granted because I though “ I’ll just do it next weekend”.
1. Friends- I use to cancel and back out of so many things with my friends. After this is all over I won’t turn down a single plan
2. Bars/clubs- I used to HATE going out to clubs . And only tolerated bars because they can be chill. But since being on lockdown for about a month and going crazy.. I can’t WAIT to go out and let loose and have fun.
Restaurants. Parks. THE MALL. And just being around other people in general. I miss it all so much and can’t for it all to over. What do you miss ?! What did you take for granted?!
I know times are hard for most and uncertain for us all, but here’s what I’ve been doing to keep me sane!
4.watching the same Netflix shows over and over(brings me comfort)
5. Everyday I start with the mantra “I’m grateful, I’m thankful, I’m blessed” it helps to put things into perspective.
I know things suck right now and everything is closed and people are dying rapidly, but we have to remember to follow what the surgeon general is telling us and to stay inside and wash it hands!! If everyone follows he rules set in place this will be over much sooner. It blows my mind how some governors aren’t taking this serious and letting people go out and crowd places. This will never be over if everyone doesn’t all come together.
How’s everyone doing?! This seems like it isn’t real and the future is so uncertain. I know I personally was so excited to go into this year and had so many things planned. And now it’s like that’s all been put on hold because of this virus. It’s weird, it’s like we watch all these end of the world movies but we never thought we’d be anywhere close to it. I personally think this is a wake up call for us all! I think the universe is trying to correct what we’ve done wrong to each other and the planet. We literally was living so reckless and careless and this is our wake up call. We have time to think and change our actions. There’s nothing else to do but to think and change. I will admit this whole thing is so stressful to me and gives me anxiety. I laugh at all the memes about it being the end of the world but I’m so scared that it is. And I have so much I still want to do, it almost doesn’t seem fair. But I know it’s not about me, we’re all in this together. There’s nothing any. Of use can do but stay and home and wash our hands. I do think the government has failed us and they’re not telling us everything. This happened too fast and is too big of a situation for it not to have more to the story. I’m super anxious but hopeful for our future. I hope this isn’t the end. And I hope you’re all well and taking care of yourselves! Let’s come out of this stronger and better humans.
They’ve done it again! Break up song is a BOP. And it’s currently number 1 in like 15 countries!!! Not to mention they put out the song and the lyric video AND the Spotify vertical video out in the same day!!!! Which they’ve never done EVER. Not to jinx it but their new team might be ok to something. Anyway the single is a fun 80s themed song about not staying heartbroken and dancing the night away. Simple yet so effective. And the girls seem to genuinely really be excited about it. I’m so happy for them and this just could be the hit to FINALLY break America. Go listen and stream break up song ❤️👌🏿.