Forever Reaction

By: Shanise Lachelle

Forever is the Newest promotional single from my girls Aespa. Now when I saw the promo pictures last week, I knew it would be soft. And then I saw the snippet and I still had hopes for a full out choreography video .

But it’s just what it looked like and perhaps something we all needed. It’s a soft , warm, and romantic love song that I can see playing on kdramas in the future.

EVERY girl has her vocal moment to shine. Proving that Aespa may be coming for every girlgroups neck, I’ve yet to see a girlgroup(kpop wise) WHERE EVERYONE can actually sing, if need be.

They said black mamba we showed you all we can dance, now with forever we’re gonna give you vocals bitch!!

They look so GORGEOUS and sound amazing, and miss ningning with that high note, that’s my girl!! AFCOURSE it’s not what I expected, but I read somewhere this is just a promo single, and the actual comeback will be coming soon. They still all sounded great and it’s such a cute song you don’t realize the video is over 5 mins long.

Aespa is really setting themselves up to be THAT ROOKIE GROUP.

Wine Wednesday’s

Hello. As I sit here drinking my rather large glass of red wine and watching the vampire diaries for the 100th time, I thought “self why won’t you do a wine Wednesday’s where you ramble about shit but drunk” and I thought “wow shanise you are brilliant”. So that’s that, I’ll be doing a wineost- wine post every Wednesday or every other Wednesday. Or maybe I’ll do it on Thursday. Guess we will see.

Today’s post is about how NONE of my exes look alike. I now realize after 28 years of dating fails that I don’t actually have a type. *gasp* I have a type for famous men afcourse, I’m not a animal! But real life boys , I’m not really bothered. As long as they’re cute and make me laugh. If you could see my list of exes/people i talked too. (Hides begins wine) I like to pretend I never dated any of them to be honest. And when I see them in public I run. Maybe one day I’ll indulge you all in my horror dating stories. Lol maybe not.

❣️Galentines❣️

Don’t have a date this year?! That’s okay get a couple of your single girlfriends together and celebrate galentines day ❣️❤️

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Go to the movies and see: fantasy island- the perfect anti-valentines day flick

Go to the bars- since valentines 🤢 day falls on Friday I’m sure TONS of bars/clubs will be doing specials.

Have a fun gathering at home: watch your favorite chick flicks and drink wine .

Spend it with your mum or grandma❤️

Anyway you choose to spend it, don’t let being single ruin one of the best commercial holidays around❤️❤️ spread love and be love.

Camille is not a fan of fine line?

If you’ve been living under a rock, you wouldn’t know that French American model Camille Rowe was the muse behind 90% of fine line. And what a beautiful tribute to a maybe doomed relationship from the start. The beginning of fine line is all about falling inlove and falling fast , and willing to

Risk it all for each other. Harry was beyond smitten!

The middle of fine line chronicles the breakup and the feeling miserable and the drunk calling the ex(to be so lonely anyone). The also I hate you phase and I don’t wanna be your friend.

The end is all about accepting the break up and learning to be happy again.

All in all a great album! But Camille doesn’t seem to like it all that much. She gave a interview last week saying the album was “intrusive “. And while we as fans can sit back and think “wow what a gorgeous album he really loved her “, there’s two sides to every story and obviously she’s not happy with the world knowing so much. It can be hard to be the muse of a huge celebrity, after that, that’s all the media paints you as. And all of a sudden she’s getting all this unwanted attention, it must be overwhelming. And now fans are starting to attack her again and for what?’ She actually dated him for over a year and she’s allowed to feel the way she feels over all of this . I hope she can find some common ground with harry and learn to be comfortable with fine line.

Sex

Don’t be alarmed by the title. It’s truth time. The last few years have been something of a mind FUCk considering my sexuality. And I don’t mean in the way you’re thinking. Ever since I got boobs I was the center of attention for boys. Mix that with the fact that I was super tiny and had a Cute innocent face and I was basically a walking porno. And I won’t lie I always loved the attention. As I got older and became even more aware of my body and potential I became even more of a vixen. but somewhere along the line that’s ALL guys saw me as. And it started to bother me

And fuck with my mental health. I started to HATE my body and hate my boobs and hate everything about me that I used to love. I started to cover up, and I got rid of any revealing clothing. I didn’t wanna be that “vixen ” anymore. I stared searching for ways to be cute and childlike my look, so maybe just maybe I could find a guy who would like me based off of how cute I was and how much interest I had in several different things-marvel. DC. Art. Music. Books etc. I wanted to be the exact opposite of me. I Went into serious self

Loathing period where I Didn’t know who I was or what I wanted. But I wanted NOTHING to do with anything remotely sexual. This lasted on and off for about two years. Then i thought to myself, MEN are STUPID SHANISE. Just because they can’t separate your looks from your brains is NOT your fault. It’s theirs! They fail to realize you’re the WHOLE entire package not just some wetdream to be full field! And it was the guys you least expect (NERDS) with NO game or charm who decided they were gonna stick me in a one-dimensional box. I mean it was the stereotypical fine ass boys too,but mostly it was NERDS.

Which also made me realize it don’t matter what kind of boy he is and if he’s fine or not .a lot of them have a one track mind and it HAS nothing to do with you.

Men simply are just dumb and usually only think with their dicks. Not much we can do with that. But continue to thrive and be AWESOME.

I love my sexuality and I love my body and my TITTIES. And 🖕🏾 whoever got something to say about it and NO I won’t be your friends with benefits 🖕🏾🥰👏 not unless it’s on MY terms.

I’ve been so busy trying to change everything about me when I’m LIT just the way I am. And I’m worth so much more than my body.

The end

Is romance dead?

I , a 28 year old women like creature has yet to experience real true genuine love.

Not for the lack of trying believe me. I’ve been on TONS of dates and something like dates, for the other person to disappear or only want sex. Romance is dead on my generation. No one opens the door anymore or buys you flowers.

I blame every romance novel and film for getting my hopes up. Nothing in the real world is even close to that. I mean I haven’t come across it yet.

I’ve been on the verge a few times but ending up falling short. Now this also very well could be the fact that I don’t put myself out there ALOT. I’m not sorry, I’ve done the whole party every weekend scene and it’s genuinely hard to find someone to connect to whilst they’re drunk. And would you believe that I haven’t randomly bumped into a handsome stranger for him to fall madly in love with me?! The utter outrage. Also let’s talk about dating sites because that’s how EVERYBODY is meeting their significant other now. I’ve been on a couple for like a week or so each. Nothing ever bites and when they do it’s for, you guessed it a HOOKUP. Why do guys just think you wanna fuck them right away!? Like I went on a date once where every time I asked a question about him he started to talk about something else. Which alone should’ve been a red flag. This one guy I had zero interest in at all messaged me and we went to high school together, so I though wow how random. I thought he was flirting because he wanted to date me and he was flirting because he just wanted sex.

Now can you see why I’m a little cynical.?! Not to mention almost every single guy I’ve had anything with in the last 10 years was a BUM. Sucking all of my light out of me. Literally, a STRAIGHT UP BUM. No ambition, no charm, no respect and sometimes no damn job. But that also is about me settling because I don’t wanna be ALONE.

But here I am almost (30), with 10 years worth of dating horror stories and growth! I’ve learned what I don’t want and what I do want!! And most importantly I’ve fallen madly in love with ME. And me deserves the flowers for no reason and being spoiled on her birthday by someone else. Me deserves someone to be genuinely interested in me and what I have to say. Me deserves someone making me waffles because they’re better than pancakes. Me deserves the BEst.

I’m going to school full time next week for 5 months and will I meet someone? Or a few someone’s?! I am in the environment where people meet other people, I’ll let you know how it goes.

Despite how negative this post is, I have high hopes for 2020! I will fall inlove. (Hopefully)

Single

The thing about being single is , I’ve been “single” or on my own for so long I’ve lost the interest to be with someone. I’ve had so many failed relationships it’s made me hard and unable to open up to anyone. It’s like why bother when I’ll probably just end up disappointed like I always am. Which I’m aware is a very negative way to go about life and love in general but alas here I am. With my walls built high and doing everything for myself. I buy my own flowers, take myself shopping, hype myself up, take myself on dates, I open my own pickle jars, kill the spiders on my own and if I want something , I buy it for myself. I don’t wait for some magical knight in shinning armor to buy it for me. In fact I feel very weird about guys buying me gifts in general. The point is once you’ve been single and let down so many times, it’s hard to open yourself up to love.

For 2020 I’m hoping I can get my shit together and try and let someone in. I don’t need anyone, but it would be nice to have someone sometimes. Maybe even if it’s just so they can open my pickle jar for me instead.

Goodbye 2019

Here’s the thing, the god honest truth, 2019 was the hardest year I’ve had in a long time. I went fresh into the new year with a new job and a new semester of school and full of hope(New website). Ended up succeeding in work but failed an entire semester of school. I dropped out temporally. I made new friends whilst keeping the old ones. New friends turned out not to be so good for my mental health. Old friends started new ventures and moved away. Cue my mental health taking another dive. My love life, completely toxic and full of drama. Cue my mental health taking ANOTHER dive. For the first time in years, I felt hopeless and just useless. I was working non-stop and was miserable. I felt like my life was going nowhere. In August I started pushing everyone away. And by November I could barley leave my bed unless I had to go to work. I wasn’t sleeping and my mind was in overdrive . Without getting to TMI on the god awful internet, I just want to say all of this sucked major ass and I’m going into 2020 hopeful. I’m making a lot of changes for the new year and I just hope I’m back here alive on December 27 ,2020 to tell you all about my amazing wonderful year. I’m rooting for myself for the first time EVER. Happy New Years 🥳

James💔

” Jamie. Jameson. James. Is warmth. Like literally happiness and warmth wrapped in a blanket. Is protection feeling so safe and protected against all that is wrong . Is bad jokes and even more so -inappropriate jokes at the wrong times. Is being ever so patient when you’re in a mood ( which is a lot) is the best hugger and cuddle man boy on the PLANET. Like I said he feels like home and warmth. It’s 1000 stupid nicknames and still having the ability to come up with more. Is inside jokes- dirty inside jokes. Is breakups and makeups and breakups again. (One day we’ll get it right) is the most gentle soul I’ve ever known. Also maybe the sweetest soul I’ve ever known. Sometimes you meet people who are like real life angels and you don’t deserve them at the moment. But you just know they’re crossing your path for a reason. He’s warmth and happiness wrapped in a blanket. He’s home💔”