” Jamie. Jameson. James. Is warmth. Like literally happiness and warmth wrapped in a blanket. Is protection feeling so safe and protected against all that is wrong . Is bad jokes and even more so -inappropriate jokes at the wrong times. Is being ever so patient when you’re in a mood ( which is a lot) is the best hugger and cuddle man boy on the PLANET. Like I said he feels like home and warmth. It’s 1000 stupid nicknames and still having the ability to come up with more. Is inside jokes- dirty inside jokes. Is breakups and makeups and breakups again. (One day we’ll get it right) is the most gentle soul I’ve ever known. Also maybe the sweetest soul I’ve ever known. Sometimes you meet people who are like real life angels and you don’t deserve them at the moment. But you just know they’re crossing your path for a reason. He’s warmth and happiness wrapped in a blanket. He’s home💔”

Goodbye September 🍂

September was full of healing and separation. September was full of the old me mixed with the new me. September was full of anxiety and trying new things on my own. September was full of healing. September was forgiving for the past and moving forward. September was falling fast inlove again. September was full of belly laughs and face kisses. September was full of sorrys. September was full of healing. September was staying away from drama and people who bring it. September I’m so grateful for you. You came and gone so fast. But your impact will last a lifetime. Thankyou❤️ because of you I NOW love September’s.

After part 2 is coming!!

The after fandom did it’s job by making AFTER the highest selling indie film of 2019 so far . Almost hitting the 70 million mark worldwide. That’s amazing for such a smaller film. But not surprising because the fandom generated billions of reads for the books. The author Ana even came out to say it will be rated R(YESS) and she wrote the script this time around!!!!! I’m so excited. Even more so that she got rid of the old team and heard the cries from the after fans. We in there, were gonna get OUR movie guys.For real this time. AWC era has begun.

Why it’s okay to have high standards .

When I was younger women with high standards were always talked about so badly and how they needed to be softer with less standards if they wanted to find a man and have a family. And it’s still the same thing now. Most men hate when women have high standards and respect themselves. It’s much easier to manipulate a girl who doesn’t know who she is or have standards and will let them do whatever they want. They want a girl they can use and use and always have them on the sidelines. Girls with high standards are harder to manipulate afcourse and then are branded stuck up bitches. When in reality men SHOULD feel need to step up more. Women make the world go round. We are the beginning and the end. Court us, chase us, romance us, and spoil us. It’s not that hard. Honestly think about your mother, grandmother or little sister. Would you let a guy like you date them or disrespect them?! Girls it’s okay to have high standards. Keep them HIGH. It weeds out the fuckboys. Fuckboys be BETTER and aim higher.

Why I’ll never settle in my love life again❤️

I’m 27 soon to be 28 in a couple of weeks and boy have I learned a lot about myself and what I DESERVE. Flashback to my teen years and early 20s where I was desperate for love and let me tell you when I mean desperate I mean DESPERATE. I took anything and any one who showed any type of interest in me. Flash forward to MANY failed relationships and my interest in love and men-dying down. I had such bad luck with men that I even tried to convince myself I was a lesbian for a while and that’s why my choices in men suck. But the truth is my previous sucky choice in men was attached to how I felt about myself and how I treated myself. And I never knew that until NOW. I was a very insecure and shy and uncertain teenager/young adult which meant I attracted men who knew they could manipulate and use me and then push me to the side. Let’s recount some of the horrors-I’ve given men money, paid for their Uber’s, and given them my time and my mind. Only for them to turn around and spit in my face. Back then I was okay with it because I thought “everyone has sucky relationships ” . But that’s not how a real man treats a queen. And I know now not to settle for a joker when I can have a king. I’m not chasing behind anymore men! I’ve done that enough circa years 16-25. I’ve asked boys out , planned the dates , kept up the contact and it wasn’t until I got older that i realized those boys weren’t really interested and were using me. I made myself an easy target and boys smell that and THEY POUNCE. I will never settle again! I’m no longer chasing a grown man. If he’s interested he’ll do the courting and chasing. I’ve settled enough in life and I REFUSE TO EVER DO IT AGAIN. I know what I’m worth and what I bring to the table. I’ll never second guess myself ever again or let a 99 cent dick make me loose myself again. I’m a queen and if you can’t reach my high standards, you’re not the one.

After review ❤️

After started off as an harry styles fanfiction on watt pad many moons ago. Not even a legit harry styles fanfic she just used his face for the character. Cut to many many set backs and years later and we finally have our movie!! The after books were number one bestsellers. Every single one of them and recently became bestsellers again upon releasing the movie. That’s just how powerful the after fandom is! Now they did TONS of promo across the pond and in tons of Spanish countries. And the movie seems to be swimming well over there and is to others surprise doing super well stateside too. Performing much better than people thought. So hello after 2.3.4. The story is the classic coming of age story with a twist. Girl goes to college, meets bad boy and is taught many life lessons. First things first I LOVED the film adaption. I understand that the film and books can’t be the same. Especially since the books are over 600 pages. There’s no way you can fit every minor detail in a hour and 45 min. Movie. So I get it. The changes were necessary because the entire one direction fandom was determined to keep this movie from happening and being successful because of the lead characters attitude and connection to harry styles/one direction. So they made Hardin a big softie and he wasn’t an asshole like in the books. So realistically the films will do better like this. I could only imagine the backlash if they kept Hardin the same, especially in the wake of (me too) and the feminist movement. Asshole Hardin would’ve been destroyed. I see a lot of after fans trashing the movie cause of the changes and it’s like they’ve never seen an film adaptation before. No movie can be just like the book. And from what the producers and actors are saying the next few will be more closely true to the books. We will get our mean Hardin and more sex scenes hopefully. I also kinda get why they cut the sexy scenes. I mean they had to keep it pg13 to get more viewers and it wouldn’t be realistic to have them going at it like that the whole first movie. All in all it’s a really cute and great film. Definitely surprised me even having seen ALL the spoilers posted by official after social media. I still loved it. I can’t wait for after 2! I give it 4/5 only because they did cut a lot of things I wanted to see and the scenes were cut weird. Khadijah red thunder and innana were standouts! Liked them more than I thought I would. Dylan Arnold was adorable as Noah and his part with Josephine made me cry. Josephine was AMAZING. I can definitely see her career taking off after this! And hero’s acting and confidence got better as the film got on. Go see it and support it. Especially if you love teen/romance drama films. The story definitely gets better in the next book. Like you have no idea what’s in store. GO SEE IT!!!


so very excited for this!! Have you seen the trailers?! Ready for a new cheesy love saga to obsess over?! After is about a super innocent girl who goes off to college and has her world turned upside down by the mysterious bad boy and his group of emo friends . Who oddly enough has a secret love for old classic literature. Now if you’re saying to yourself this story sounds very familiar, it’s because it was once a very popular one direction fanfic era 2013. But since becoming published and being bought for a movie deal, it’s been completely changed around a bit. (Gotta avoid those lawsuits). Anyhow it’s generated ALOT of online hate from fake feminists and the 11 year old 1D fan base. To which is making the film and books more popular. Check

It out come April 12. It may surprise you.

Fun date ideas for valentines day❤️

Now we all know everyone will be doing dinner and a movie(boring), so let’s switch it up a bit.

1. Go go-cart racing! ❤️

2.go bowling❤️

3.go play mini golf❤️

4. Go to an amusement park/fair❤️


5. Just Stay home with a home cooked meal and a bottle of wine and the company of your favorite person. ❤️

Honestly the whole dinner/movie thing is super played out and I can promise you that is what everyone Will be doing on Valentine’s Day and everything will be super booked and busy. So do something a little more laid back and fun. The whole point and purpose of Valentine’s Day is just being with the one you love most anyway.❤️ don’t get all caught up in the social media glitz and glam. Sometimes less is more.❤️ HAPPY VALENTINES DAY❤️❤️ spread love everyday but especially today❤️