“I don’t understand people. I don’t get them at all. I try and try to paint myself this social people loving bunny, but I’m not. I haven’t had the best luck with people. Like I’ve met some serious shitty people in my life. Some real fucking pieces of shit. They’ve used and used me again and then blamed it all on me. Maybe I am to blame for being so fucking thick EVERY time. I mean I put walls up and I’m a BITCH. I let them down and BAM I get used over and over to again. I often wonder how I look to other people? Do I look as pathetic and deprived of love as I feel?! Are these feelings even real or just in my head?! Fight or flight. Am I fighting to survive or just flighting? Sometimes days. Weeks . Months go by and I can’t remember a single thing. Not one. Is that sad? Fight or flight?”
“But what I’m trying to tell you all is life is hard. I mean like actually hard. Especially when you’re a 28 year old broken depressive-anxiety ridden weirdo who thinks she’s gonna die anytime she does anything remotely exciting. But what I’m telling you is life is hard. Especially when you are comfortable with your quirks. You love them. You fuck them. Only for people to hate them. Life is hard man. Especially when everyone is SHOUTING BE YOURSELF… and then you are and then they don’t like you. But the thing is life will always be hard, what matters most is getting back up to fight another round no matter how hard. Life is HARD. But anything worth having shouldn’t be easy. As cliche as it sounds, if it’s easy it’s not worth it. Because what will you learn if you get every thing you want every time you want it?”-shanise lachelle
Posting my art more. Also made a Instagram for it @shaniseart.
Happy pride 🌈! Here’s a list of lgtbq movies for you to enjoy this month and always🌈 what’s some of your favorite lgbtq films ? my absolute favorite is blue is the warmest color and call me by your name is just insanely aesthetically beautiful.
- Love Simon
- Call me by your name
- Below her mouth
- The feels
- Duck butter
- Blue is the warmest color
- but I’m a cheerleader
- Broke back mountain
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Last year I stepped outside of my “artist” box and started a photography art series titled (BLOOM). I actually enjoyed it much more than I thought I would and got to experience a different type of fullness that I’ve never gotten before. I titled it bloom because it was me opening up to a different sensual/artistic side of me that I kept locked away for so long. I was “blooming”. Long story short I don’t claim to be a life changing amazing ARtIST okay. I’m doing my best here and in general think my art is pretty basic and shit. But doesn’t every artist think that? Here’s my new project titled (sex). Hope you enjoy. Please be kind. Or don’t, sis doesn’t really care either way.