“Honestly depression isn’t kind. It kills people and we know these are facts. Yet we still treat fragile depressed people like shit. Life can really suck sometimes. Like it isn’t all rainbows and unicorns. It’s blood , stress and tears. It’s your mind telling you you’ll never be worth anything. You’re nothing. It’s crying yourself to sleep some nights and waking up with a headache. It’s spending days in the bed. It’s functioning like a normal person at work then getting home and just sitting in one spot for hours. It’s daydreaming constantly about happy times and the day it’ll all end. It’s pushing yourself through it day by day even when you don’t want to. It’s loneliness. It’s emptiness. It’s just a black hole. It’s not talking about it cause it’s hard to explain and nobody really cares anyway. I’ll tell you honestly depression is NOT KIND, so maybe you should be… just a little if anything”
“I don’t understand people. I don’t get them at all. I try and try to paint myself this social people loving bunny, but I’m not. I haven’t had the best luck with people. Like I’ve met some serious shitty people in my life. Some real fucking pieces of shit. They’ve used and used me again and then blamed it all on me. Maybe I am to blame for being so fucking thick EVERY time. I mean I put walls up and I’m a BITCH. I let them down and BAM I get used over and over to again. I often wonder how I look to other people? Do I look as pathetic and deprived of love as I feel?! Are these feelings even real or just in my head?! Fight or flight. Am I fighting to survive or just flighting? Sometimes days. Weeks . Months go by and I can’t remember a single thing. Not one. Is that sad? Fight or flight?”
“But what I’m trying to tell you all is life is hard. I mean like actually hard. Especially when you’re a 28 year old broken depressive-anxiety ridden weirdo who thinks she’s gonna die anytime she does anything remotely exciting. But what I’m telling you is life is hard. Especially when you are comfortable with your quirks. You love them. You fuck them. Only for people to hate them. Life is hard man. Especially when everyone is SHOUTING BE YOURSELF… and then you are and then they don’t like you. But the thing is life will always be hard, what matters most is getting back up to fight another round no matter how hard. Life is HARD. But anything worth having shouldn’t be easy. As cliche as it sounds, if it’s easy it’s not worth it. Because what will you learn if you get every thing you want every time you want it?”-shanise lachelle
Posting my art more. Also made a Instagram for it @shaniseart.
- Your stepdad was right you’re gonna get your heart broken 100 million times over before you even hit 25.
- You don’t really like party’s or going out. But you’ll do it anyway to just socialize.
- You don’t like socializing all the time or making new friends. It’s exhausting.
- You’ve yet to find your tribe. But you will
- Your current friends don’t really get you and think you’re a weirdo. Newsflash you ARE A WEIRDO.
- You’re gonna date ALOT of fuckboys. So many you’ll convince yourself you’re a lesbian. (And maybe you are)And god is trying to teach you a lesson through suffering 🤷🏾♀️
- You will suffer greatly from depression and anxiety and very few people in your life will understand you. Or stick around
- You’ll give up trying to please everyone . And everyone will call you crazy and a bitch in return but oh well.
- You’ll launch a website and begin to work towards opening your own online shop. That’s the most exciting thing to come sis just you wait.😁
- You’ll experience life in ways you never thought you needed to . But it’ll break you and make you the strongest person you’ll ever know. Just hold on girl , there’s so much more in store for you. Hold on
Launching something exciting very very soon.
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As we ALL know. I’m a super fan and I will stan them to my death. In this HOUSE🏠 we stan LITTLE MIX. And they NEVER disappoint or fail to amaze me . Every single era has been POPPING. And like America usually sucks ass cause of like being super homophobic and racist and THEIR president is a moron and like eugh🤢 . So it’s no surprise to me AT ALL that they continue to sleep on the British all girl talent that is LITTLE MIX. I mean when you can find a girl group that can ALL sing and hold their own. They never try and out perform each other they perform always as an unit. They redo their singles EVERY time they perform them. And they genuinely all LOVE each other so like🗣🤷🏾♀️ I don’t know what else America wants. But anyways little mix have given us the ultimate summer thot bop in bounce back. 10/10 recommend. It’s a sample song but like who cares!! Drake has done sample songs and Beyoncé! This song is a BOPPPPPPOPPPPPOPPP🗣🔈. I pray they have good universal promo coming up and they give us dry ass Americans what we want and need. Little mix just continue to deliver and y’all continue to sleep. But this BOPPPPPPP could be the BOPPPPPPPP to set them off and wake America the fuck UP. Do your ears a favor and go give it a listen. You’re welcome. Happy official summer as well🌞
Here’s some queer friendly music to jam to this pride. What are some of your favorite lgtbq artists??
- King princess
- Troye sivan
- Hayley kiyoko
- Years and years
- Janelle monae
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Last year I stepped outside of my “artist” box and started a photography art series titled (BLOOM). I actually enjoyed it much more than I thought I would and got to experience a different type of fullness that I’ve never gotten before. I titled it bloom because it was me opening up to a different sensual/artistic side of me that I kept locked away for so long. I was “blooming”. Long story short I don’t claim to be a life changing amazing ARtIST okay. I’m doing my best here and in general think my art is pretty basic and shit. But doesn’t every artist think that? Here’s my new project titled (sex). Hope you enjoy. Please be kind. Or don’t, sis doesn’t really care either way.