poem – AsToldByShanise

2021

A poem hit by reality 2021 taught me nothing nice I wanted to be nice, I wanted to be kind. So I began filling my life with honest love Spoiling everyone around me Putting smiles on people’s faces But all that was returned was FAKENESS. I tried time and time again to be the changeContinue reading “2021”

Untitled

I can’t wait to finally be SEEN. For someone to look at me and really SEE me . To really know me like I know me. To understand me. To actually listen to me. To notice things about me that I don’t have to tell them. To love me the way I love me. IContinue reading “Untitled”

Lessons

What I’ve learned about myself so much these past 3 years is that , friendships consume me. And not in a good way. I often find people I have zero in common with and become fast “best friends “. I then go over and beyond for them and would kill for them. Only to beContinue reading “Lessons”

What I love is….

Rainy days and days that it doesn’t rain but it still smells like it Anything that reminds me of the 90s/2000s and my childhood. I immediately feel safe there Life’s lessons. They’re hard and suck. But here’s the thing life will continue to send you the same lesson until you pass it. Holding hands. PlayingContinue reading “What I love is….”

Hello the new me

This new me is a me I’ve secretly met many times before. But loudly afraid of reactions and loosing friendships I’ve kept her (closeted). I’ve always come back to her just to keep her hidden away. Safe. She was perfect . Pure. I didn’t want anyone to see her really or to ruin her. IContinue reading “Hello the new me”

James💔

” Jamie. Jameson. James. Is warmth. Like literally happiness and warmth wrapped in a blanket. Is protection feeling so safe and protected against all that is wrong . Is bad jokes and even more so -inappropriate jokes at the wrong times. Is being ever so patient when you’re in a mood ( which is aContinue reading “James💔”

Honest

“Honestly depression isn’t kind. It kills people and we know these are facts. Yet we still treat fragile depressed people like shit. Life can really suck sometimes. Like it isn’t all rainbows and unicorns. It’s blood , stress and tears. It’s your mind telling you you’ll never be worth anything. You’re nothing. It’s crying yourselfContinue reading “Honest”

Goodbye September 🍂

September was full of healing and separation. September was full of the old me mixed with the new me. September was full of anxiety and trying new things on my own. September was full of healing. September was forgiving for the past and moving forward. September was falling fast inlove again. September was full ofContinue reading “Goodbye September 🍂”