The thing about being single is , I’ve been “single” or on my own for so long I’ve lost the interest to be with someone. I’ve had so many failed relationships it’s made me hard and unable to open up to anyone. It’s like why bother when I’ll probably just end up disappointed like I always am. Which I’m aware is a very negative way to go about life and love in general but alas here I am. With my walls built high and doing everything for myself. I buy my own flowers, take myself shopping, hype myself up, take myself on dates, I open my own pickle jars, kill the spiders on my own and if I want something , I buy it for myself. I don’t wait for some magical knight in shinning armor to buy it for me. In fact I feel very weird about guys buying me gifts in general. The point is once you’ve been single and let down so many times, it’s hard to open yourself up to love.
For 2020 I’m hoping I can get my shit together and try and let someone in. I don’t need anyone, but it would be nice to have someone sometimes. Maybe even if it’s just so they can open my pickle jar for me instead.
Happy 2020🍾🥂 let’s get into it!
Don’t be alarmed by the title
Little mix is Stilll that girl group and the best girl group out of this past decade. And my favorite girl group-EVER. But that being said I’m very OVER their management teams at this point. At the beginning of 2019/ ending of 2018 they let go of modest management, which is run by the devil Simon cowhorns. And we thought ” YES OUR TIME HAS FINALLY COME, world tour here we come” 🤡. We thought WRONG. I have no CLUE why little mix thought getting rid of their management in the middle of releasing one of their BEST albums was a smart choice.🤡 the promo was HORRIBLE and all over the place. Not to mention the cancelling of all the tours in Australia and Asia. Like cancelling tours in their biggest support areas was A BAD PR MOVE. And quite possibly SABOTAGE! Cause like why else? Why? WHY?!!!!!!
Not to mention they don’t mingle with other people in the industry. Like that is KEY to longevity in this industry. You don’t have to like the people or become life long friends- although it helps in the long run. But mingling helps your career ALOT. Come on. They laugh about how they stick together at awards shows and events and at first it’s like OK CUTE HAHAHAH. But now it’s like Hahah do y’all want a career or NAH?! How do they ever expect to break America and get the attention they rightfully deserve if they don’t talk to people?!🤡 do you know how far connections GO IN THIS INDUSTRY AND THIS WORLD?! They’re not famous enough to not talk and make connections. They’re not, they don’t have that luxury yet. Had they laid down those foundations when their promo was great- DNA ERA/get weird era, they’d be SUPER famous.
Period!!! They have the charm, the voices… the VOICES!!! Have you heard them sing live or accapella?!!!!!! Honestly … angels on earth. Each of them can sing and how many groups is there out there where ALL of them can sing?! – there is none- NEXT. They can all dance and hold a routine! They love each other -genuinely. They actually like each other. They’re actually FUNNY. Watch their funny moments and try not to laugh. They literally shut it down every performance no matter how big or small! They remix their singles every time they perform them, EVERY TIME. The routines , their look, the videos, like I could go on and on but point is- THEY GOT IT. They got it all. So why aren’t they’re more famous?!!!!!!!
They also go on too many holidays/vacations. They go away for tour for like 2 mins and already they miss their boyfriends blah… like how do you EVER expect to break anywhere when you constantly go on vacation and whine about your boyfriend?! Like I get it – they’re busy and they don’t get to see their family a lot but comeon. The amount of holidays they took in 2019 alone was ridiculous. RIDICULOUS. It’s like they don’t take their careers as serious as they want us to believe.
Once again they don’t have the luxury to just sit around and do the absolute bare minimum and go on fancy vacations. They don’t. They’re not Beyoncé or Rihanna level yet or at all.
Now I’ll give them their credit they’re the biggest girl group of this decade and the biggest western girl group. But people still don’t know who they are and their music STILL isn’t popular outside of the uk and Europe. Like what are we gonna change going into 2020 girls!? Cause y’all have it all- looks , music, the voices, the charm, the talent, …… so what is gonna change?! Cause honestly im TIRED!!! Imagine how tired your fans are. All this talent and the world is sleeping on you and it’s mostly because of you and your management. Y’all could be doing so much more… SO MUCH MORE. Y’all have it ALL… like 😔 . I just want y’all to be world known . Why don’t y’all want it too?! Where’s that hunger gone?!
At the beginning of this decade I was fresh out of high school(no diploma), no job, no friends and super depressed. and I was lying to everyone around me about what I was I doing with my life. Truth is I wasn’t doing anything and that killed me and I was ashamed. I felt hopeless for the first half of the decade and my 20s , like it would never get better. And for a long time it didn’t. It only got worse. I couldn’t get a job, I couldn’t pass my math ged (always 4 points off) and my friends didn’t understand depression/mental health and walked away. Fast forward to the end of the decade and I’ve had 3 jobs and been in college since 2016, I’ve put my work on hold to go back to school full time in January, I’ve launched a blog/website, started selling my jewelry. Fell inlove, fell out of of love, fell in love with myself, cut off a toxic 10 year nothingship, realized money doesn’t make you happy, made new friends who feel like family, traveled to Mexico, North Carolina, South Carolina , Georgia, California, became much more confident in myself, I became comfortable In my sexuality and so so much more. Started working out and looking after myself. Looking back I’ve accomplished ALOT And I’ve come so far! Shanise from 2010 would NEVER even dream half of this would happen. If I would have gave up in 2012,2013,2014 I wouldn’t be here and wouldn’t have been able to experience the amazing things I have. I’m glad to be saying goodbye to this decade. Although the end of it was amazing , it was still a very hard 10 years for me and I really went through it! Here’s to 2020🥂🍾 and to hoping I’ve finally found my way and I can let go of all the past bullshit. Here’s to another 10 years!!!!! (Please be better than the last)🥳🍾
HAPPY NEW YEARS, BE SAFE🍾🥂🎶
Here’s a little silly but worthy list of ALL my white boys crushes this decade. the favorite white boys of the month in no real order.
- Logan lerman- we all started off the decade with Percy Jackson as our crush.
- Harry styles
- Chris Evans-human torch and captain america🤤
- Jamie dornan- fifty shades of FINE ASS DADDY MATERIAL.
- Hero fiennes tiffin
- Dylan sprouse
- Dylan Arnold
- Penn badgley
- Zany Malik-before he was a cheating scum
- Niall Horace
- Liam payne
- Gavin leatherwood
- Alex fitzalan
- Christopher wood
- Paul Wesley
- Robert Pattinson
- Shia labeouf
Happy 10’years🥳👏!! Did your favorite make the list? Who on the list was your favorite white boy of the month?! And I KNOW, I have excellent taste.
Here’s the thing, the god honest truth, 2019 was the hardest year I’ve had in a long time. I went fresh into the new year with a new job and a new semester of school and full of hope(New website). Ended up succeeding in work but failed an entire semester of school. I dropped out temporally. I made new friends whilst keeping the old ones. New friends turned out not to be so good for my mental health. Old friends started new ventures and moved away. Cue my mental health taking another dive. My love life, completely toxic and full of drama. Cue my mental health taking ANOTHER dive. For the first time in years, I felt hopeless and just useless. I was working non-stop and was miserable. I felt like my life was going nowhere. In August I started pushing everyone away. And by November I could barley leave my bed unless I had to go to work. I wasn’t sleeping and my mind was in overdrive . Without getting to TMI on the god awful internet, I just want to say all of this sucked major ass and I’m going into 2020 hopeful. I’m making a lot of changes for the new year and I just hope I’m back here alive on December 27 ,2020 to tell you all about my amazing wonderful year. I’m rooting for myself for the first time EVER. Happy New Years 🥳
Number 45 has finally been impeached! And he’s the third president to do so. And the democrats got him there. What a beautiful end to this shitty year! But let’s not forget the monster that waits behind him -pence. We have to get the whole entire team outta THERE!!!
As we end another decade. Let’s look back on some of the best movie franchises it had to offer.
I’m almost certain I’m missing some. But here are the films i enjoyed and watched the most this past 10 years. What were your favorites?! Did they make the list?!
- The avengers franchise- also the highest grossing franchise EVER.
- Star Wars- the last Jedi, the force awakens, the rise of sky walker
- The Hunger Games
- Paranormal activity franchise
- Fifty shades of grey
- Iron man-1,2,3
- Captain America-1,2,3
I waited to do this review because I simply didn’t wanna seem unsupportive of the black arts. I was super excited when I first saw the trailer earlier this year and LOVED the concept of a black-chocolate Bonnie and Clyde. And to some extent this was just that. But it was also a HUGE letdown. The actors did AMAZING. They did what they could with the script and acted their asses off. The storyline has huge plot holes. And generally just didn’t seem like it knew what kind of story it wanted to tell. The film was beautifully shot. But it just wasn’t as great as the black community is hyping it up to be. It was boring.( I hate to say it), but it was boring. There was a point I fell asleep during it and woke up and nothing still had happened. The ending pissed me off and the whole film just didn’t seem likely. The only touching part of the film was the end. I hate even being this negative towards this film because it had the potential and the acting was superb!!! But it just fell short for me. But maybe that’s just me and maybe I was expecting to much, who knows! Still go see it and support the black arts!!!